Demons

Demons

(Mike Wheatley)

There is a cluster of demons that live inside of me; the demons are all evil wicked beings.

I can live with these demons inside of me, but it takes drugs to repress these evil wicked things.

I don’t like that I need drugs to repress these evil beings,

 But alone… I can’t do it, they ALL over power me.

These evil things are wicked they are driving me insane,

 They make me do stupid crap; they cause me a lot of pain.

I abused drugs that were used to help me, and I treated my family like crap;

They just wanted to support me, help me through mishap.

Yelling and screaming at my children when all they wanted was me,

 I was so messed up, that I couldn’t even see.

My children were receiving pain from the demons now, it wasn’t only me.

My wife and my children are now suffering from these evil wicked beings,

 I don’t understand…they’re living inside of me.

This all caused from the demons that live inside of me?

 I wish the demons would leave, so I can have my life.

I want to be normal again, a better dad, and ten times better to my wife.

I feel there is only ONE solution to ridding of these demons,

 The only solution I know, is taking my own life.

So I think of the many ways of how I could possibly take my life,

 I think about it over and over again over many, many days.

“A failed attempt at a suicide” Is now what I say.

I have come a long way, and now I can say,

 “I am thankful to be alive today, living with the demons”.

The demons I live with are now sitting at bay, they listen to MY commands, listen to what I say.

They don’t control me or make me go crazy or make me go astray,

 I do as I wish but they still didn’t go away.

I live with these demons every single day, but I have more control over them with every passing day.