May 22nd 2005 (Can't let go)

May 22nd 2005 (Can't let go)

(Mike Wheatley)
I said before that I can finally look back and say goodbye,
But the more I think about you...I know that was a lie.
I close my eyes; I see a picture of you flash in my mind.

Instantly brings back horrible memories, and time seems to rewind.
Back to that day when you were in so much pain,
screaming in agony… all the blood loss was insane.
You are of the strongest men I've known, whose friendship I’ve gained,
the image of you hurt, mangled, bleeding and suffering will always be stuck in my brain.
I can't say goodbye to you Wil!
And I don't think I ever will.
How can you say goodbye to someone you didn't want to die?
Let alone...the last words you heard from me...were lies.
I live with the regret of telling you, you were going to go home and things were going to be okay.
I didn't think you'd end up going home in a pine wood box, shipped off in an airplane.
That feeling… that feeling continues to deliver me pain.
I love and miss you brother, but we will meet again.
I am sorry I could not keep you here to be with us all,
Why? Why did it have to be YOU? You that had to fall?
It wasn't fair for GOD, to take you from this earth,
You were sent from above as an angel, from the day of your birth.
I cannot say goodbye Wil...I cannot close this chapter.
I don't know when I will live "happily ever after"
So...until then, until then Wil.
I will see you later.
Brother…